Change

After reading the blog posts from Abby and Mel, and seeing how wordpress is so clean-cut and white and pretty. I figured - since their tagging system is so easy and convenient and more so, important for us to keep up with each other's lives, and and - all the compartmentalization of my life =) and pages!

I finally have the heart to give up my power packed imeem list with all - and decided to make this blog a music one linked to my wordpress one. My heart aches. I love the music on my blog - but hey, I can always just come back and tune in.

I like how Abigail paralleled her previous change in blog to her facing a major change in life. I think its so true. Leaving behind those yellow colourful dots which so attracted me when I first saw it, (my impression of it changes as I grow older I believe) I find myself entering a state of clean slate.

Then, I thought on why I even keep a blog - with priority given to keeping my family members, friends, church mates in touch with my life and happenings (so they can keep me in check if need be!). Next, to journal my day to day happenings cos' I tend to forget what happened the day before since everything everyday seems to happen too fast, too quickly for me to digest. Lastly, to journal my growth - physically (dang, I hope not), mentally, and spiritually.

That said - today marks the day I truly step into my pre-walk in that unknown path, as I took out my bible and placed it right into my check-in back pack, Cannie.

Reminding me of the most important thing to not forget to bring.
And giving me the reason not to take it out of my bag and say - there's no space.

Isn't it with life?
Let my new abode remind me never to forget to pack in the most important conversation in any day amidst all the other noisy items I may have in my back pack.

Embrace Change (eeps.)

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gosh. it's not easy. I love my thoughtsonlife blog. Deep nostalgia indeed. Here's stephspeaks - joining the ranks of abbyspeaks and mellyspeaks.

Here I am

-after ripping all those sad melodies of youtube videos for the drama kiddos tomorrow. Feeling blue.

There are so many things I want to blog about. Every day - mid-day - I'll come up with the perfect blogpost I want to capture my day in --> then my midnight gets robbed by "admin" time and yes, my perfect blogpost goes poof*.

In random scatter - lest I forget how my time is spent 2 months before I leave -- now 1 month (eeps.) Seriously - everyday passes by without me much remembering it --> cept for Abby's departure =(

1. Abby left =( She left this Sunday morning.
2. DYTM3! =) On saints --> Go DYTM!
3. Council day plus SIMPANG WITH SAMS - and Airport camera excursion!
4. Lunches with Geri and Crystal =)
5. Shopping errands with Abby --> buying of Cabby and Cannie! =)
6. A whole day spent with Jane at NTU! - Followed by Evening mass at NTU and journey home with Pete!
7. Abby's packing day at her house!
8. YC retreat over the last week night

(9..) Me being driven around by Mel! - many times this week --> boy I'm jealous. Though more thankful and grateful and amazed at how fast we've grown than jealous. =)

I shall retreat to my bed now and pray really hard I have the energy to conduct classes for 4 classes tomorrow =(

4 classes.

Oh and guess what - my contract got extended to the last week of my Singapore stay. So much for having enough alone-time with my family!

=(

The only thing I want to share now

I almost forgot how meaningful this song was after stumbling upon "Journey" - then Lao Er totally reminded me of this song I used to listen.

I used to listen to this song a year ago - only because of its lovely melody coupled with the beautiful Corrinne May and the resplendent scenery she was playing at. It was the video that made me believe that was how I was going to spend my perfect day - in the sun, on a field/hill, somewhere far away from the concrete jungle - seated in a crouched manner - hands holding knees tucked neatly, staring at the magnificence of nature.

A year later - milestones in life all checked and ticked - I look at the song and finally feel the impact of the lyrics. Took me a probe and reminder to take a further look at the lyrics. I remembered tearing at the lyrics previously because it was pure beauty - but now, I do the same - only due to a different reason - how it touches me with not only its beauty but by its sheer ability to describe feeling.

to be honest it won't be as bad for you cos there'll be so much going on
cos well. they'll be back home wondering how you're doing
so you're actually on the better end
-quoth an angel in disguise!

My Driving Weekend.

My weekend was lovely.

Not because of the driving driving driving! - but also because it was spent beautifully with the people I love! =)

Thursday - Dinner with Ah ling Jie, Er Jie and Da Jie at PP Steamboat. Then driving to Kallang Leisure - where I saw a car hit another! (Esp after I said the car was parking really nicely!) At night, not only was I blessed with friends and tickets to watch JASON MRAZ IN LONDON- I was blessed with interesting conversations! Besides seeing the lovely scenery from Vancouver through the very amazing skype, I also ended up talking to LAO ER! (Gabe) about going to UK, life and just random-ness. It was hilarious - I can't really sleep after that lah!
**Gabe! The sky photo is for you! - Remember the day after evening mass you smsed me to look up! I captured it! -Vermillion crags =)

Friday - spent family time at home and watched the Olympics! (The Opening was amazing. Totally captivating! I like the footprints-fireworks throughout Beijing! Its so meaningful!

Saturday was just one of the loveliest Saturdays I had in a long time. I woke up like at 12 + (rare recently!), half expecting the house to be empty since everyone just leaves for their own activity. I was pleasantly surprised that Er Jie just woke up - and I had time to pick her clothes with her. Then Mom and Dad were preparing to go for Novena. Thank goodness I woke up in time! I ended up going to 1 pm Novena with them =) And I am so thankful I did! I can't remember the last time I went there - besides Christmas. I am so thankful for just being near my parents =) and being able to spend time with them, even if it were silent lunches and silent car rides.

Pa let me drive from Novena to Geylang, Geylang to MPCC, to Parkway! Then at night, from home to Changi Airport to send Da Jie and Jie Fu off! (Totally awesome!)

Then at night, I went for Abby's stayover with Eliz, Sam Lee, Mel, then Sam Chan came (who became the reason why I stayed over!). It was a popiah party which her mom organised! Abby keeps driving everywhere - its so cool. Anyways - we finally had good SAMS time together and spent the night doing our time capsule (though Abby crashed by then) and slept with super disgusting comforters. (eeeewww.)

Sunday was nice! I went to meet the CAAS peeps for lunch and rehearsal (at TCC! - totally posh haha-) We mum mum at Pasta Mania - then headed to TCC for drinks and rehearsal! Meeting them for Popeyes tomorrow.. hahaha --> Good luck Xue Yang for your 50 km march man. (eeps.)

**Kenneth: Don't say I never post!

GUESS WHAT - I totally made up my mind on a laptop---FINALLY. (those who know my laptop dilemma will understand the weight of that "finally.") Ah Ling Jie was in the vicinity and she brought me to Centrepoint to shop and in the end to Bernard's (at Funan) to check out laptops! It's a simple Fujitsu =) I'm so happy! My heart has found its laptop lover in a humble plain Fujitsu!!! =) [I wanted to Hp, but it was so shiny and sleeky - I did not like the touch pad]

At night, we ate at Kallang Leisure! (which brought in British India?!) And the desert was totally awesome -- its pumpkin ball!

It's deep fried with pumpkin paste inside ---> surrounded by Mango sauce. A subtle blend of salty, sweet, and zest! So niceeeeeee. (I'm posting pics later!)

Pa let me drive again! - from home to church - and from Kallang to home! =)

Tis' I declare my driving weekend!

red suzuki swiftttt.

**US at IKEA totally crashing their stuff and doing our rubbish things!
***MY DRIVING OBSESSION NOT FULFILLED - abby and mel gets the car all the time!

Thank you.

I did not know how beautiful being thankful is - as I gazed into the flames of the candle I held during YFP just now.

There's so much to be thankful for.

So much.

So much.

Thank You for loving me - and for showing I need no distractions.

I wish my mind would clear up. Distractions!

Today I had the super-privvy of waking at 9 am

to the sound of my father asking me if I wanted noodles from the Fat Man Wan Ton Stall.

And then going back to sleep till 11.30 am, just cos' its a Monday and thankfully - I had nothing on.

I ended up watching Rachel Ray - and washing the clothes for Er Jie, since she happily tasked me to do it.

Headed to Novena to meet Bridget - then met with Theresa, an angel I swear! She helped us talk through DYTM, and arranged to help us further with our facilitation skills. Really enlightening talking to her. Since we're so close to Colin's office, we decided to meet him for Kopi! Ended up taking about life, YC and just catching up =)

With time to kill before meeting up with my Ww mentor, Rui Lin and course mate Chloeeeeeee - Bridget and I ended up sitting at Starbucks and making ANTI-PIGEON POSTERS for our Lao er. =) Hahahahaha. Please don't kill us Gabe. We totally entertained ourselves and just ended up talking about stuffs.
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Meeting up with Rui Lin and Chloe was more than just dinner and HALF-PRICED PREGO YUMMY CAKES, and being lamp posts at the Chijme's open area to couples.

It was so surreal.

I was telling them, it is so cool that in a few months time, we might be meeting up again, eating something, sitting somewhere, talking about stuffs - but only at a different place, the place.

I don't know what's ahead - and while it is really useful to hear what Rui Lin has to say about Warwick and about our preparation - it seems to me no amount of preparation can get me fully ready for the entire experience. I don't know what to expect - in terms of everything else that's not in the Duwwy guide-- i.e. the intangible experience of being in a new chapter! All I know is -I'm getting ready to be blown away by the greenery - greenery - greenery.

On the flip side, with time passing so uber fast - and abby leaving in like less than 24 days time - and all my bestest friends busy to meet up - and Da Jie leaving for Aust soon - and Er jie busy with her wedding prep - and Mom in Jakarta - and everything whooshing pass me, I constantly need to remind myself --> I need to give this chapter of my life enough closure to move on.

Stock taking time peeps.